Let’s be real, I’ve got a one track mind over here. It reads: “Baby, baby, baby, baby.”Haven’t taken any pictures recently, so this one is recycled. I can’t imagine I’ve grown too much in two weeks… but then again…
As of now, baby is still head up in breech position, or what my doctor is calling “incomplete breech” with it’s head up top, the spine and butt curved around to the bottom, and the legs in pike position near the face. These days I can feel my stomach and pretty much tell exactly where every body part is.
Breech baby means c-section, in our case. Yes, there is always still time for a flip, but my doctor doesn’t think that it’s likely at this point. We’ve accepted it, and moved on. We are very much looking forward to bringing our son or daughter into this world safely, and that day is approaching SOON!
Many people don’t understand why we chose to not find out the sex of the baby. “Don’t we want to know how to decorate the nursery?” “What about clothes to buy?” “And picking a name!?” “Isn’t the suspense killing you??”
We didn’t care about having a blue or pink nursery, or buying lots of clothes before the baby arrives. Yes, friends said it was difficult to shop for a gender neutral gift, but we honestly weren’t anticipating any kind of baby shower being over-seas anyway. We just got lucky with that! Throughout my pregnancy, I’ve had my suspicions of what this baby is, but I’ve made sure to not get hooked on the idea of having either a boy or a girl. Ideally, I’d like to have one of each one day!
So, thoughts on having a boy: I’ve always seen myself as a mom to boys. I would adore feeding them all their favorite foods, attending their games or concerts or supporting whatever their hobby of choice may be. I imagine watching him grow into a handsome young man, getting ready for his first date or school dance. I see him seeking independence but always holding a soft spot for his mom (or so I hope). I look forward to teaching him how to treat the ladies, to be respectful and considerate, to hold himself with confidence but to always be grounded and humble (just like his dad). I would teach him how to flyfish, or better yet, have my Dad teach him. Garrett and I would try to encourage a love for travel and the outdoors by taking lots of trips, starting at a young age, and hoping that a passion would spark and engrain a sense of adventure and spontaneity. And lastly, could there be anything better than a mini Garrett Bruno? I don’t think so. Of course, I think pretty highly of my husband, but I have no doubt in the type of role model he would be for our boy. I look forward to watching their connection and seeing them form the relationship that is only present between a dad and his son.
On having a girl: One of the most sacred relationships I have is the one I have with my mom. It’s probably so special because it wasn’t always so easy! Over time, she really has become my best friend (and I honestly can’t even write this without tearing up!). So, simply put, that’s why I want a girl. I feel like I have a lot of lessons I could teach my daughter. I’ve made a lot of mistakes that she could learn from! I’d pass down the lessons my mom taught me, and share them with her. I’d be open and honest with her and hopefully develop the type of relationship where she knows she can always come to me. I’d be strict and relentless at times, but soft and sensitive when it’s needed. Garrett would be the best dad to a little girl. He would teach her how to play soccer and how to be tough. He would also melt in her hands, I’m sure. He would be protective and always, always make sure she is taken care of. I am also a little fearful of having a girl, remembering what I was like with my mom! But, the best part is knowing my mom would be there to laugh with me about the hard times and offer advice when I asked for it. There is something so incredibly special about the relationship a daughter has with her mother, and I hope I can experience that with my own.
So, I’m pretty much split down the middle. I can honestly say that I will be so happy and blessed with either. I just can’t wait to find out! I have had about a million and one people tell me that I am having a boy because of the way I’m carrying. Only time with tell…